A journalist observes life in the far north.
Lightning is still alive but remains in bad shape. Alec said that he stopped peeing blood but his heart was beating so rapidly that they sedated him. Alec wanted to take him home, but the vet said he would undoubtedly die without around-the-clock care. Alec keeps putting his head in his hands. My stomach churns when the cell phone rings. I am supposed to be doing my taxes, but I don’t feel like it.
I hate how this day has turned out. Before all of this happened, we had talked about going to Chena Hot Springs and taking the baby swimming for the first time. Now it seems there is nothing to do but worry. Alec went for a walk. The baby is restless. Maybe she is picking up our vibes.